It feels like my heart is being chewed by bitterness and crushed , ouch and it's hurting my teeth . i feel so heavy at heart .. i want to so badly now to point a gun at my head and blast it off. i feel like tearing myself into pieces ( i m already torn into pieces , literally) i feel like kiiling him ! get away from her !!!! i hate uue ! ! ARGH !!!! I HATE UUE TO THE CORE OF MY HEART !. . get away from her before i kill uue . i f**king sw**r i would . and now... I feel like banging against the wall . i feel like jumping off the building . i feel like..a failure.and this is why i didnt dare to believe in it .... becos it always bring this god damn feeling to me . and it doesnt feel good at all .. worst still , no one understand how i feel . i want to be out of this world , it's miserable. it's killing me T.T no one believes me . oh how great . that's all for how i feel today . there's so much more horrible feelings i m having inside me . too much to say . adios ppl . bye bye . gracias. thanks for listening .
today , i lie on my bed for hours , trying to mend my broken hart . for uue to not believe in me really tore me apart . no wait. doubting me was the worst thing i had ever felt. i dont noe what else to say. because i really do love uue.
i think my cough is back again . damn .. losing my breath .
